i am SO exhausted daunted excited

phew, im back in london. nice to be home.

funny, i went away determined to get into good routines and enjoy hoome cooked food. i ended up ill for the last 5 days and not eating anything. thus, the first time i actually feel hungry, is NOW. when im back in london and away from home cooked food and nice things. DOH.

tomorrow is a new year. i don't make resolutions anymore though as i walked over the bridge across the railway line to get back to my house i decided and i also then realised that this term is going to be VERY different from last term. This year, different from the last.

I always find new years day exciting and i find it daunting becuase i look back to the new years day the year before and think of all the things that happened in the days, weeks, months that followed that i could never anticipated. good things and bad things. And so, I know that, on the brink of another new year the same is true. i just don't have a clue what could happen. that's exciting and it's daunting.

Sometimes i am overwhelmed at the dichotomy of the huge uncertainity of life alongside the knowledge that my Father is working for my good. It's a really strange, yet comforting feeling.